Sunday, July 9, 2017

Out of the Blue - The war within

When life is twisted solutions can't be straight. Spirit can't be spoon fed and comes out by the constant churning of the life ocean. When there are no angels around and you need to choose among demons. The war that is within us fuels us and also consumes us. Everything is within and whatever comes out sweet or sour is the result of the churning but how you consume it also does make a difference.

This is depicted on the back of the book and really a good read and yes, I am talking about my first book. Out of the Blue - The war within. Its a collection of short stories with a twisted end. 

It can't be said to be a true review if I review my book so I would rather not review it and leave it up to the readers to do so.

Happy reading guys and please review it as your opinions are the building blocks to make a better writer out of me.


Saturday, January 28, 2017

Respect v/s Fame

What is the difference between fame and respect that’s the first question we Indians ask? It is a natural question as we don’t understand the difference between the two.

Respect is when everyone in our ‘galli’ or ‘mahula’ knows us and they also know about the problems (mostly theirs) we have faced and solved. Most of the time we expect a little respect from others after all it’s imbibed in out culture. In the starting when the people start respecting us we feel a little shy but over all we feel great. Gradually it becomes our habit we demand respect for the things we did in past (or maybe our ancestors did it). There is no harm in it but this hunger for 10 grams of respect keeps us from doing anything exciting or even going out of way. We always think what will happen to my respect if I do this or do that. In the end we do nothing and we give it the name that we are strongly rooted to our culture. Our culture was never this all the ancestors questioned everything and probed and then accepted anything to improvise. They never accepted anything blindly. We have reached to the stage where we force respect from the people smaller than us and it doesn’t matter that the person maybe smaller than us in just one aspect and in other aspects he maybe better than us. We belittle every person in our contact just to extract those 10 grams of respect.

Now coming on to fame, it’s the phenomenon where we imprint our footsteps in the sands of time and everyone watches us. The people who have got fame have never craved for any gram of respect. They just did their work and never cared what others thought about them and what will happen if no one respected them. They stayed child like for their full life and even after imprinting their footsteps in the sands of time they always knew that even these footsteps are very small and they will also vanish along with the sands of time. 

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Dilawar Pasha

Dilawar Pasha
Gunvant Rai Acharya

Gunvant Rai Acharya is the stalwart writer in the Sea Farers stories. His stories have left a big mark in the Gujarati Literature. Dilawar Pasha is a book on the same story line of sea farers.

The first story is about the initiation of a clerk in the sea-faring business. He is from a mediocre family with big dreams of striking gold by sea-faring to Africa. He is always seeing the people who have returned from Africa with big fortune. He is as usual stopped by his parent as he is the only child they have. His name is Dalsukh, educated upto 2nd Standard and 20 years old. The story is set in the WWII scenario wherein he feels that all are fighting to stop him to go to Africa. He thinks that the war is stretched very long and why they are not fighting and finishing off? Such is his dilemma. Adding to this his immediate boss also refuses to give reference to him to go. He gets frustrated and thinks that his boss considers his son to be capable to go and not him, why? There is constant fear of the submarine attack so all the steam ships have stopped so a captain named Rehman wants to encash his products by faring in the older ship which is a sail, mast, rudder ship. Dalsukh joins him as his clerk and runs away from him after satisfying the doubts of Rehman to show that he is not absconding after some crime, so starts his sea faring journey. He excels in the navigation. On the way they meet a British Ship which escorts them to near by island and on the way Dilawar Pasha sinks a submarine and damaging the ship is the process. In the island some people are kidnapped by the Japanase who do not wish to hurt the people but want to avenge the British. Dilawar Pasha in the end subdues the Japanese with the help of the British and the novel strategy of Rehman the Captain
“Khallas” is the term when the ship reaches the shores and is unloaded; the payment given to “Kharavas” (The Sailors). This story is about captain Aladad employed by Sundar Sheth and his love for his ship Lakshamshi. The story is about the silk trade with the Chinease, they came with the silk load and reloaded with sugar, so still we call sugar as “Chini”. There was always competition to reach the shores and the first ship to anchor the shores got a golden gift so the ship always needed to be the best of the best. Sundar sheth delivers the last khallas to Aladad and takes him off the job and sells the ship to buy newer one. The agony felt by the Captain gets unbearable by his wife so she ventures out and buys the ship Lakhamsi from its buyers after selling everything of hers, her brothers and the captain’s family. Both Captain and his wife fare the sea in their old ship and reach the shores first and before the other ships reach they are able to sell their entire ship load. So a unique love story of the Kharvas.

Hasan Patel has enmity with Ali Tandel and keeps on searching him in all the on shore bars. Hasan ha lived a very adventurous life and helped everyone but now no one is able to help him. The story is that Ali Tandel is a shameless womanizer and elopes with the daughter of Hasan Patel. After some years the daughter returns with all white hair and fallen teeth and dies within few days in the hands of Hasan. One ship comes and the news is in the air that Ali is there. Hasan is ready to end the enmity by killing Ali. Hasan is ready in the bar with his knife. All the people are aghast that what will happen when the enemies meet. A sailor form the ship comes and informs that ship had come in the lightening storm and Ali Tandel has lost his both eyes and now left on earth to creep around. Hasan says to God “I was thinking to revenge him but you have better ways of punishing.” Hasan sees Ali and rushes to him with knife and says that I have promised my daughter that she won’t be alone in her grave. All people close their eyes as Hasan raises his knife. When they open their eyes they see the knife in Hasan’s chest. A well taken revenge.

Captain Pirmamad is a well-known navigator of all the types of ships, mechanical and old-timed also. He has till now saved 14 people by his ‘barig’ Lakhpasha. His past was not good, he was a pirate in the past and now he has changed his name and done lots of good deeds. His companion of the past meets him one day and black mails him. On the ship there is a very bad storm and the captain saves the ship. In the end his prayers to the god are answered and the black-mailer dies in the storm. He thanks God for everything and continues his good work.

“Harari” or “Haradi” is a fascinating word which is in no other language. It means when a person loses all this controls and becomes like a ravaging elephant without any concern for his life and anything which comes in his way is destroyed.

It’s a humble try to explain this book but the Gujarati version his far better.

Thursday, July 28, 2016


Mom’s call came when I was busy in the office she said that a letter had come from Jamnagar which was of course common so I said that I will read it when I return. I returned in the noon and read the letter which stated that my auntie’s leg had broken before ten days and she was totally bed-ridden. The letter itself had taken five days to reach me which meant aunty was totally bed ridden for fifteen days now and it was serious so the very next day I rushed to her place. I checked on-line to find the good doctors there i found Dr. Maheshwari's address and phone numbers so I called and took an appointment.

My aunty stayed in a beautiful and historic city Jamnagar which is around 100 Kms from my city. Whenever I go there I have to park my car far away from my auntie’s society as the streets there are too narrow. I walked to the house after parking my car and called my uncle; I call him uncle even though he is not related to us he is a sort of family friend my aunty, when she was a nurse, had saved him from his severe chemical burns before many years and from that time on he is a family friend and therefore my uncle. 

Auntie’s leg had rotated to around ninety degrees so we decided to take her immediately to an ortho. Mu uncle suggested Dr Maheshwari, who was an expert in the city and my aunty also had trust on him as sometimes back she had treated his father and they had never taken his fees so my aunty thought that he would be considerate in treating her. We called an auto as it was the only available conveyance I also had to call two-three more persons as the weight of my aunty was more and we had no stretcher so I called them and they obliged, I sat with her in the auto and uncle followed in his bike.

On reaching the hospital the staff took her upstairs in the stretcher as there was no lift as it was an old styled hospital, there were few patients sitting in the OPD so we sat near the stretcher aunty continued her shouting that her leg was paining very much, I went to the reception twice to ask when will the doctor attend him, I was told in ten minutes but it took nearly thirty minutes before the doctor checked her. First of all her x-ray was needed and the hospital had in-built lab so we went there. My aunty had not got up since fifteen days and neither had she changed her clothes so naturally her body stenched I felt bad but there was no alternative as my aunty and her older sister stayed together and the elder auntie’s age was around 75 years so naturally she was unable to bathe the younger aunty. And yes, I forgot to tell my both the aunties are unmarried as they never believed in the institution of marriage so my family is the only immediate family they have. Back to the x-ray lab there was a weird and dirty look on the lab technician’s face which of course I didn’t like. He took the x-ray and aunty was taken out and I apologized to him when he sprayed the lab with room freshener, he said it was ok and he had to freshen up the room for other patients. I was asked by the reception to buy some medicines from their in-built store. I did it and the preliminary treatment started. Various tests were also done on her and her bone density showed very less calcium so her femur bone had broken even by a small fall. After the tests aunty was put in a store room as she shouted much. Doctor told me that the bone was needed to be operated and fixed with steel plate and secured with screws then I asked him about the cost he asked me to wait to solve other complications such as the sugar level of my aunty as it was very high. At about night 10’ O clock the doctor called me as he was treating a patient; he told me that it would cost around one lakh rupees. I requested him to reconsider his stand as my auntie’s financial condition was not that sound and it was not possible to spend that amount. He told me that it was up to me to decide and take the call as he said quality does cost. I took my call and refused him as I had no money. The doctor said that it was good as the treatments after the operation also required more money.  I called my mom to ask her friend who works in Ahmadabad civil hospital that if we can bring my aunty there and after asking her my mom replied that it was not possible as the doctors were on the strike at that time. I let my uncle go home as his family was also waiting and I stayed. I went out walking on the road in full tears and cursing the God that my aunty had served the poor her whole life and now this is happening with her, it was not just and she deserved better. I had never felt the need of money till today. Now I got to know the importance of money in a very hard was I forgot all the spirituality and all the prayers that I know the bare bones were that there is nothing without money. I was seeing my aunty slip into nothingness as I had no money. I smoked a lot and returned with food for my aunty. She could eat only 2-3 spoonfuls only and drank little water and slept. I was not feeling sleepy and also hungry so I lay there in the next bed and did nothing. I felt hungry later on and went to eat there was a pau-bhaji seller who just had the last plate for me and I got lucky to get it. After dinner I went again to the hospital and at the pan-shop I met a garage owner whose shop was under the hospital, he told me to come to his shop and I went there. He told me that this doctor is stone hearted and even if you give him his one lakh there is no guarantee that my auntie’s leg would be completely cured. He suggested me another doctor Dr. Nehal Shah, who was a very good doctor and also a very good person, he also told me that the doctor would consider if I explain him. I thanked him and took his contact no in case I plan to go there. Earlier I had given one old pair of my clothes to the gate keeper so it was easy to ask him to open the hospital gate. That night my sleep was often disturbed by shouting from my aunty and frequent mosquitoes.

 In the morning I told my decision to my uncle and he also opined that Dr. Nehal was a very doctor so I asked him to first go there and show him my auntie’s file so that we can transfer aunty after that only thereby reducing her hardships a little bit but for that I needed the case file so went to the reception and asked for the file, the receptionist replied that the file was with the doctor and not with him. I went to the doctor with my uncle who was still confident that the doctor would consider and be human at least in some proportions. I sat before him and he handed me a bill of ten thousand five hundred rupees which consisted of 6500/- as his consultation charges which were exuberant by all the standards I requested him to consider so he reduced it by thousand rupees I told him that that much money I don’t have in my pocket also and offered him to show my wallet, he acted angrily and said that I needed to pay him the exact amount so I asked some time from him, he said I had time till evening so heart bleeding I came out and I had five hundred less in his bill amount and I was ready to beg it from anyone but my uncle said that he would give me that amount so I took it from him and paid to the reception and collected the file fully sure that I didn’t want to keep my aunty there anymore. Also adding to the shamelessness the doctor took from me a written statement that I was shifting my aunty to a government hospital so I had taken the discharge and also shamelessly also said that his son was working in the government hospital and if I needed any help he was ready to write a letter on his son. I thanked him for his kindness and went out. 

We visited the clinic of Dr. Nehal Shah but it was Sunday and doctor was out of station and also out of network so we decided that we would go to him on Monday and went to Dr. Maheshwari’s hospital and took my auntie’s discharge and again called an auto and took her home. When I counted I had spent around sixteen thousand in twenty four hours and gained nothing just some reports and auntie’s position remained the same she kept on shouting in pain.

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

The Greatness of Saturn by Robert E. Svoboda Part VII

The Greatness of Saturn by Robert E. Svoboda

A Therapeutic Method

(Book review 12/2015)

Reliable ways to please Saturn

1.       Wearing of a ring or bangle made of iron or steel, especially which is made from a horseshoe or horseshoe nail that has been collected at a time that is propitious for the purpose you wish to accomplish.

2.       You can also feed, and otherwise serve, a wholly black animal, especially a cow

3.       Worship a Shami tree (Prosopis spicigera)

4.       Give alms to the indigent on Saturdays

5.       On Saturdays you should fast or eat one meal only; if you eat, the food should include urud dal (split Phaseolus radiates)

6.       You can give your old clothes to a homeless person on Saturday

7.       Give iron implement that is useful to his trade to a labourer.

8.       You can also feed crows on Saturdays for several Saturdays in a row.

9.       Immerse the metals sacred to the planets in flowing water or bury them in earth. This type of donation gives back to nature that which nature has given us and is useful as an act of non-attachment.

10.   It is beneficial to start your upaya during the astrological season ie January 20 to March 19 for Saturn.

11.   Direct worship of Saturn, or worship of Lord Shiva or of the monkey god Hanuman, is tested, effective ways to conquer “what comes naturally”.

Note that Saturday vows are also useful for Rahu and Ketu, the two of the Nine Grahas who do not own weekdays, Rahu and Ketu are closely related to Saturn because they are shadow planets, and Saturn’s mother was Chaya, “the Shadow.”

Friday, August 28, 2015

The Greatness of Saturn by Robert E. Svoboda Part VI

The Greatness of Saturn by Robert E. Svoboda

A Therapeutic Method
(Book review 12/2015)


Saturn has been recognized as the most important of the Nine Grahas in other cultures as well as in India. The Chaldeans used Saturn for divination more than any planet. Babylonian and Assyrian astrologers, for whom Saturn was Ninib, god of the south, also called him Shamash, the “sun-star”, anointing him the ‘sun’ (most prominent planet) of the night. Since Saturn is by no means the sky’s brightest planet, his ‘solar’ prominence lies more in his symbolic significance. Western alchemists called him the Black Sun. The Greeks knew Saturn as Kronos (“he who gives measures” = the originator of time), Chronos (“time”), and Cronos (the crow god), the crow being much used in divination, and being symbolic of long life, in both Italy and Greece. Some even believe that the Holy Stone of the Kaaba in Mecca originally represented the god Hubal (Saturn).

In both Indian and Western astrology Saturn symbolizes people who are isolated from the daily life of the rest of the world: custom agents, jailors and jailbirds, ascetics, penitents on religious retreats, healers and patients in isolation wards or sanatoria, latrine cleaners, and grave diggers, to name a few. Marsilio Ficino, the Renaissance philosopher, contributed this list: “We are subjected to Saturn through leisure, solitude, and sickness; through theology, secret philosophy, superstition, magic farming, and through mourning.” (Quoted in Moore, p. 173) Anything that makes us withdraw, physically or mentally, from the thick of things is a function of Saturn.

Saturn, who rules both longetivity and prosperity, can make a king into a pauper, and vice-versa. When Saturn is happy he causes good fortune to sweep through your life, and when angry he destroys everything. He control’s everyone’s destiny. No one can escape from Saturn’s grasp, no matter where he might be in the world. No planet except Saturn can give you both long life and also plenty of things to consume during that life. Jyotish (Astrologers) gives Saturn pride of place because only he can change someone’s fate. So you should know what Saturn has laid out for you and arrange your life accordingly, if you want to live happily and peacefully.”

Saturn teaches endurance and humility. “In esoteric teaching, Saturn is the planet of discipleship, and a disciple is someone who is learning. “ (Greene, p. 194) In the Indian context, however, a disciple is someone who learns by surrendering to Reality, who studies minute by minute everything that Saturn has to teach be it bitter or sweet. True disciples attempt to control their own natures, that they may influence Saturn’s influence on themselves.